ungrateful & being thankful

since jordan and i were married i have been so ungrateful. so many people have done so much for us and continue to help us. as you can read below my ungratefulness has left me discouraged & unhappy. i have been humbled and have realized a lot. i sit on the couch daily, upset, alone, and feeling bad for myself. my family is a country away & my friends seem just as far. i have felt like i had no one but have not realized i have more in jordan than i ever was able to have in anyone else. i am so thankful that i live here, in the united states, that i am given the privilege to worship & live as i desire. i am thankful for the church and that i am so blessed to have a husband who works & goes to school in order to help us prepare for the future. i have a family who loves me and takes care of me even a country away- and though i miss them like crazy i know that no matter what they love me & i love them. i am so blessed to have been raised in a family that told me constantly that they love me. i am so thankful that i live in a country full of opportunity & freedom. im thankful for my friends who continue to keep in contact with me-it sucks that i have yet to find friends here but i am glad to have family & my husband that help feel that large LARGE void. i need to remind myself & renew the things in my mind that i am thankful for. i wish that it was easier to maintain a positive mind but without my mom, dad, brothers, and friends it seems difficult. i am doing my best & trying my hardest.... lets hope i will be successful. :)