Update!

So I'm still undecided on the job. Yesterday was a break down day. I was stressed, anxious, sad, blah blah blah. Today I woke up to Jordan telling me my breath smelt. So I woke up laughing. Thanks to my oh so honest husband!

My car had a check engine light that was on and I have been super worried about it. You know mechanics make $100 p/hour (holy hell! So expensive!) and we were stressed to take it in. I wanted to take it in before it turned into a worse problem. I took it in and now I'm waiting for it to be fix. It's a leak in my evaporative system. Pray for under an hour!! Haha...

Since I'm sitting here-I thought I would update our first week in our new ward....it was BEYOND AWESOME! The people went above and beyond making us feel welcome. (anyone heard of almost dead or newlywed wards? Jordan told me about it... We left an almost dead ward for a newlywed one full of little ones!) We met the bishop within the first few minutes of walking into sacrament and everyone sitting around us introduced themselves and apologized if we had been there before. It was so nice. People were willing to go out of there way to say hi. We actually got taught some great lessons in all our classes. All in all we are so excited for this ward.

After church we were able to have nick, devin, Jake, and of course Kyle over for Sunday dinner. We had spaghetti for dinner and homemade apple pie cheesecake for dessert!


This is our yummy sauce! Thanks mom for always making me help you with the spaghetti!! :) We had fun having the guys over. I love making lots of dinner... Makes me feel like I am home!

It was a great weekend then Jordan got all the classes he needed yesterday so it started as a pretty good week! Now lets hope that my car doesn't take too long! :)

Have a great week!

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Drive to Fort Collins...or Loveland?

Friday night our bearded dragon...




This cute little mad guy ran out of food (crickets) and he was in need of some more. He will eat other things but hates vegis because he's spoiled. (stubborn)

Jordan and I decided to go to Fort Collins to get him food and buy us a dang bed...a tempurpedic bed to be exact. We drove down and it took 45 minutes. Yeah impressive! So we were driving-Jordan got mad at me and in return I was pissed at him; on the freeway as we were about to get off jordan says "P.F. Chang's 1/2 mile that way and points to the left" I looked at him thinking he was lying and joking he responds to my pissy face with... "no I'm serious that's what the sign said". I freaked out and knew where we were going to lunch! 45 minutes away I have chipotle, chick-fil-a, and now P.F. Chang's!! So excited!

We got off the freeway (in loveland) and I had to get some hair supplies... Next to the hair supply store was a mattress store. We went in there because we wanted to try out the cloud beds by tempurpedic.... We had every intention of buying it online but we got two free pillows and a mattress protector at this place. So excited! We bought it!!! It will be here within two weeks! That means we have a place for people to visit now! So excited! After our big purchase we went and got P.F. Chang's... We were so excited! The dumplings were delish ad so was the Dan Dan noodles-the chang's chicken, wasnt the best but it was still yummy! Hit the spot! I was way excited also because of this fortune cookie...





My question for mr. fortune guy... When is it not??

After our yummy lunch and exciting purchase we hurried and got the crickets to head on home. The sunset was amazing on the drive home! I know I'm going to love it here... I just need to adventure out of my bubble. I'm still not sure about this job offer... so I am going to tour salons on Tuesday and see what this town has-I know I can make more doing hair and eyelashes, it will just be harder (more fun work). I need to figure out if it's a bad feeling about the bank or change... Wish me luck!

Today we start in our new ward-I need to go shower. We are very excited for it! I'll let y'all know how it goes!

I hope everyone has a great Sunday! Love you all!

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Well. Well. Well... I have been gone far too long!

Moving sucks... Unpacking sucks... New schools suck!

So I have been super-duper busy! We have no internet & all I have had time for anyways is unpacking and cleaning. I have one more box of miscellaneous bathroom stuff that im not sure what to do with and also need to organize the 2nd room. I have wanted to blog.... Really badly! But every time I tried I got an itch to clean.

Since the last time I blogged...
-We got into it with the reality company again. They told me we would be reimbursed for all the "work" we did on the apartment. Then said we wouldn't. Then I said they would. Then they said they wouldn't-so I told them we will take all the stuff we've done with us and it will all be broken. They told me that I'll go to prison for vandalizing if it's all broken and I should have waited. It's going to end in a civil lawsuit-guaranteed. Oh joy!
-Jordan still hasn't gotten any official word on any classes. He's still in limbo with that and found out today that he can't be in one of the classes yet. He's really happy about that. (sike!)
-We got gym memberships and have been active gym goers and dieters for 1 week now. I have lost 3 pounds. Yeah. I don't know where or how but I feel good and that's all that matters! Right?
-I got a job offer. Yay! So exciting. Kind of. I have this problem with it. When I'm there I feel way good about it, when I'm home and sitting pondering and thinking about it-I get stressed, sick to my stomach, and have this feeling that I am going to miss out on a better opportunity if I accept. Jordan keeps telling me it's because I don't like change but I was way excited about the job-until the bad feelings came. I hate it.
-My brother Bryan got a car! A nice one. An all black everything Acura! So nice!
-We finally got cable back. We were so bored and realized how boring we really are! I was disgustingly way excited for jersey shore! (judge me if you want) I think that trashy show is so hilarious and last night Ronnie kicked the crap out of mike-classic!
-I got the check engine light checked on my car... Finally! It needs to go in the shop, its a leak in one of my central lines. :) at least we know what it is now!
-I got finger printed for the first time ever today! It was awkward-but really cool!

... And I think that's it! I found some new recipes on my m.i.a. blogging week. I will post if they are delish! I hope everyone is doing great and has a great weekend! I hope to get Internet next week so I can really blog! Pictures of the apartment and all!


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made it "home"

We've arrived!!! We are finally in Laramie. No Internet, no bed, no couch... Just cuddling up on a mattress pad, a quilt I made, and our old comforter-in the living room. Were super cool. Jordan is asleep. He is pretty amazing. Yes I worked hard getting the boxes packed and everything [for the most part] ready to go. Last night, we had a breakdown moment. For the past few days [since I started my new not ready for children remedy] I have gone back to my panic attack ways. It's bee rough. So I have been exhausted but not sleeping. Jordan has tried his best to help me be ok. Yesterday was the worst and it was day one of moving. I had 5 panic attacks but couldn't stop working so I buckled down and kept moving. We had an issue. It made us turn on each other-though it wasn't about either of us. We were mad and even after apologizes still were this morning. We loaded a van and 4 cars until 11pm last night. Then got up at 7am to pack a UHaul truck.... On 4 hours of sleep. Then we drove 6 hours to Laramie. We are here. The apartment was filthy! I was kind of bugged by it but tomorrow we will start the cleaning and finish unloading the UHaul.... When our family gets here to help of course. We are excited to have them come help. I am so thankful we got here safely and that we had no car troubles or other issues. I am also VERY thankful we have family that is willing to come and help us! We are so blessed! Let me tell you-I am excited for this new chapter! (oh today is thankful Thursday!) Well today I am thankful for Jordans parents helping us with the UHaul truck, great family that's willing to help, and Jordan working his butt off so that I can keep myself calm.... I am also thankful for this new and EXCITING chapter. We are beyond blessed and know how blessed we've been. Before Jordan so exhaustingly fell asleep he made me realize how great this new adventure will be. I love him so much for his support and his concern.

Sad part of my night-my youngest brother was injured during the 8th inning of his baseball game tonight. Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers that he may heal quickly! I hate seeing him in pain or anyone I love for that matter. :)

Thanks for stopping by! Enjoy your weekend! Here are a few photos from the move.

Out with the old:







In with the new(ish) needs to be cleaned:















[total 70s/80s countertops-BRIGHT ORANGE! My new baby blue table will match so well in here-it will look like the Florida gators vomited in my kitchen! GO COCKS!!]

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in a weird place...

moving on thursday is starting to be sad to me. i am trying to see the light that i once saw but its getting harder.

yesterday i had a breakdown.... a sad and long drawn out crying one. where i was sad about kids growing up. sad that we didnt ever get to know anyone in the ward. sad that i was away from my parents. sad i cant watch my brothers play baseball everyday like i did. sad that i cant figure out whether to be upset or over certain things. sad that tom was in town. the whole nine.

jordan and i are excited to be moving. me especially. i am hoping this new ward has more people my age and that we will be able to get to know more people than the 2 or 3 from the last one. officially we never met with the bishop once. so odd. we got a calling and it was the 2 counselors that called us. dont get me wrong-i loved the kids, the calling was great, but i never had an opportunity to meet anyone. the parents didnt communicate at all and when they did communicate it was about there kid acting up. im kind of sad by our first ward as newlyweds. so moving we are hoping we will be in a better ward, maybe bigger?

i will miss the time with jordans family. we were standing in the bathroom brushing our teeth. our bathroom is small. VERY small. its bare now-no towels, no shower curtain, no rug. he turns to me and says "things will be different now, huh?". i shrugged my shoulders and said "i dont know what you mean?". [trying not to cry about how sad our apartment currently looks]  i get what he means now. we wont have family right here next to us. granted we do have kyle and devin living in laramie but i mean like cresta and ray. we had family dinners every sunday with them. it will be way different. cooking every sunday, not seeing them, not hanging out and playing cards. so many things are going to change. when we visit it will be visiting home-not coming home. i told jordan a few days before, its kind of sad were leaving. we made this little apartment home and we are just up and leaving it. were going to make the next place home and leave it again. we have a lot of changes coming in the next few years and no this wont be the same and yes things will be way different now. honestly, im kind of excited to start on our own. i love ray and cresta-but being married is an adjustment and im ready to adjust just us two. grow as one. [if that makes sense] im grateful for the time i have had here but im ready to be on our own and see what its like to just be by ourselves.

i am excited to have a 2 bedroom apartment. we dont have a bed for the second room yet but we will soon. [hopefully] we are taking donations if you'd like to support our new apartment you can send me  check. [kidding-maybe] haha. no but i am excited to have it so people can come visit. im hoping my parents will come and stay with us soon. that would be fun. plus steph & reese can come play with us-we always have fun with them. and ray and cresta can come anytime. [especially since cresta will miss her boys, i know, and will need to visit them!] it will be so fun. plus the bathroom is double the size we have now anddd it has a washer & dryer... and the dishwasher in the kitchen. im pretty excited about dishes not sitting in the sink. [biggest pet peev] oh and 4 loads of laundry that will be done when they are ready not all on sundays.... JOY! im hoping to get a job soon. i have one interview on friday. hopefully it goes well. im so ready to work... get out of the house. maybe jordan will get a part-time job and we wont have any worries on bills. im stressing because we will be paying double what i am paying here in powell plus electric. sheesh! life is so expensive.

i am excited. just nervous. there are a lot of changes to come. i just got over the changes mad 10 months ago, got comfortable, just in time to leave again.... its nice. i wish i was like my brothers and could up and move and be ok. they are such great examples of strength in change. they are studs....

well back to cleaning & packing...

ill post pictures of our mess, boxes, emptiness.... then the emptiness, boxes, mess, and home after.... i may be incognito for a  while.... happy blogging!

its thursday & oh am i thankful.

so today is a calm day for me-im starting by saying im thankful for that. i have been so busy. packing, cleaning, packing, cleaning, being indecisive on what to pack, cleaning. you know the usual crap you do when youre getting ready to move.... anyways i have a lot to be thankful for. its weird, youd think saying what youre thankful for EVERY thursday would be hard-it gets easier and easier ever week....

im THANKFUL for laughing. last night i was grumpy and kind of just mean. [tom is here and i hate tom] jordan and i watched a Morning Glory. it was such a good movie and it made me laugh.... laughing makes me happy and changes my attitude. i love laughing.

im THANKFUL for the cooler air. ahhh [sigh of relief]. i love the spring. [in vegas it was march] and the fall. [in vegas it was halloween-only] its been between 70-90 & sunny. its Heavenly. seriously.

im THANKFUL for mindy gledhill. when i was having a hard time-or if i ever am. i open up my scriptures and listen to her music.... i love her voice, the softness of her songs, the peace, the happiness. if you havent listened to her its christian music and beautiful. big recommendation.

im THANKFUL for answered prayers. ok jordan brought up something from a long time ago, that made me sad-very sad whether it was a while ago or not, and i just kind of need to defend myself-i feel. as most of you know jordan and i wrote while he served his mission. some time after, his mission president asked him to be obedient and not write me any longer. in this meeting he told jordan if she respects this she is a good pick. (which i didnt find out until much later in our relationship) it was a difficult time for me when i received his letter telling me that he couldnt write anymore. my mom told me to write him one final letter. i prayed and prayed about it. i knew i shouldnt write him. i cherished that final letter. it signified so much to me. it showed me jordans appreciation & respect of the Gospel, it showed me his obedience to the Lord, and it [tried] teaching me patience. i prayed about what to do with his parents names address' etc... i had no clue. what do you do? this guy gives you his families information-so i prayed, i mean it was the only thing i could do. i couldnt ask him. soo after this i got this undeniable answer about jordan & what to do. i had to come see him for his homecoming. (for the record in vegas-they dont do talks the first weekend they are home usually. it is often a weekend later than they arrived) i felt bad interrupting his time with family but i prayed and got an answer and even after that i prayed some more and got the same answer time and time again-do i deny it and ignore it? thats a slap in the face. i got way too many answered prayers at that time. i am thankful for them... but no one REALLY knows or knew how hard and scary it was for me to pursue dating jordan. the girls i worked with thought i was nuts! and everyone still probably does... but jordan is an answer to WAY too many of my prayers. along with the extras i got in exchange. a temple marriage, a new family, and a new adventure. the prayers that were answered so long before i even took a leap of faith brought me so much more than i could have ever imagined.

ok next...

do you have someone you always feel you have to look bombshell hot in front of? just someone you think is always watching, waiting for you to look bad that one day, so they can laugh about it. yeah well im THANKFUL for make-up. yesterday i literally ran into the person i would least want to see me looking my worst... and boy was i bad yesterday! tom is here. i was in sweats. bun on top of my head. not an ounce of new make up on just smeared all over my face. i thought i washed it off but it was every where when i got home so i looked ROUGH. so today im thankful for make-up. i love make-up. i mean im a cosmetologist! i LOVE make-up! haha

im THANKFUL for my photographer from my wedding whitney lewis shes really the best. and packing i have found a TON of pictures that i am so glad i have! i just need frames for all the goodness i have!!

oh so THANKFUL thursdayy.... now its your turn...

birthday week[end] extravaganza

so last week was my birthday week. i talked it up. because i can do that. on my birthday weeks it gives me a reason to not hold back when eating, to sit and watch my favorite shows instead of cleaning, and to pretty much do as i please...that is exactly what i did.

jordan made me breakfast a few of the mornings and took me with him on day adventures & just loved me all kinds all week.

wednesday i was in so much pain from my neck so jordan got home and said lets go for a ride. 3 minutes later i pull up to a field which i call HEAVEN. i blogged about it already but i dont care. i LOVE this picture so love it too. haha.

 thursday we went to cowley so i could complete my dining room set (which i ended up not doing) & to go to jordans softball game. while there my sister-in-law texted me telling me where my birthday gift was from her and reese. when i get told about a gift i itch to open it... im a freak. i love gifts! LOVE LOVE LOVE them. im not a fan of surprises-because surprises usually involve anticipation and im not patient at all! so this gift was both a surprise and a gift! so i opened it. jordan was mad but oh well. he is a turd! they got me the most awesome things!

a lotion, a body wash, & my favorite scents-ports from bath & body works-my favorite! and also some fun crayola bath tub crayons. [which are great for spouses just sayin-im excited to use those]

friday night we went on a date to the proud cut in cody, wy... and let me tell you it was awesome! it was in expensive and it was one of the best steaks i have had in a WHILE! it was cooked perfectly and i totally indulged myself in that 8oz steak. it was soo yummy that we went back yesterday for burgers and they were just as wonderful!

my goof husband & the deer head at dinner.

after dinner we went and saw plant of the apes. it was really really good! it wasnt my first pick but it was AWESOME. it was really kind of sad-maybe i just get too into movies but it was awesome. after the movie we had a few things to get a walmart and did that & also got a good laugh at something that happened.

saturday was my birthday! i woke up and jordan headed off to paintball. [he hadnt been all summer and i knew how bad he wanted to go so i told him to go] anyways he got home around 11 with my gift in hand... he got me brand new scriptures. i wanted green ones-go figure they were discontinued. i must be the only person that likes them. whatever. i LOVE them. im so excited to break them in with new notes and new highlights. i did go through them last night to highlight my favorites but thats about as far as i have gotten...then he showered and we headed to go river rafting down the shoshone river in cody. we used river runners. it wasnt that great. it was $60 and it was slow and kinda boring if you ask me. sadly it was as awesome as i had hoped. the scenery was beautiful dont get me wrong but maybe a different company does a faster route on the river or a better area. after that we came home to a note on the door and realized someone sent me flowers. i called and they brought them out to me [even though they were closed] which i think is AWESOME business. this picture doesnt do them justice! they are beautiful and its huge!!! and they were from mom and dad. they are the best.

 and got ready & jordan took me to the lamplighter thats here in powell. its way good. [they have tomato bisque soup & croutons that are to DIE for! yeah thats how i base my experience in a restaurant on dont judge. haha] 

it was so good plus jordans cousin hooked us up with banana fosters cheesecake that was divine!!!! i started eating it and couldnt stop... literally i said jordan help me eat this then all of a sudden i had 2 forks [notice im not lying above] and was 2 bites away from finishing and jordan started laughing. i realized i had eaten almost the whole thing even after asking him to help. im a pig on my birthday! haha. we went home after dinner and continued how i met your mother. which we ended up finishing that night.

sunday jordan woke up way early. he had to pee [and felt bad about something that happened the day before-which i wasnt worried about anymore but he still felt bad] and never came back to bed... it was EARLY like 5 and he waited up to make me breakfast. [dont judge we know it was fast sunday but he made em anyway] he brought them into me and we enjoyed breakfast in bed.we got up and got ready for church. it was way good. we enjoyed the calm nursery and they enjoyed there new crayons i made. thanks to pinterest.

they are so easy! cut up broken crayons into small chunks, put in mini cupcake pan, in oven @ 250, for 10-12 minutes, cool, then color! new fun crayons!

after church we came home changed & cleaned up a lot a bit. jordan helped and that was AWESOME. its so much easier when we clean together. gosh i love that. we headed to cowley for crestas party extravaganza. [i have the BEST mother-in-law ever!!! shes so kind and generous!] she made me cafe rio for dinner which we pulled up and i could smell it from outside! we ate dinner and had some awesome cake.

it was too pretty i didnt want to cut it! yellow cake with caramel filling DELISH! after we had cake we opened gifts so grandma drue could head back to john. i got some money, a kite, a cute make-up bag, a nail polish, some love for my lips, and these awesome cups.

they are breakfast cups/cereal bowls/hot chocolate goodness! i wasnt going to get anymore of my white dishes but then i painted my table and had a panic of how hideous my lime green dishes would look with my blue & white table. so im transitioning! haha. these mugs looked so much smaller online but they are HUGE and are only $4.99 at Bed Bath & Beyond. yeah-a STEAL! im so excited to use them. i may have to snag a few more.

once we were done with gifts we played & taught grandma lerose how to play wackee six. i could play because it brings out the worst in me. i dont know why-i cuss and scream and fight. wackee six for me is like scotch for a cowboy. yeah. i dont know. it just happens. so i helped grandma beat ray & jordan. then she headed home. then ray cresta jordan and i played 2 games of hand and foot. of course jordan and i are still undefeated and we are AWESOME! no big deal. it was late and we headed home soon after that.

i want to say thank you to everyone for my awesome gifts and my awesome week! i love you guys and all that you have done for me!!

now its crunch time-literally. now i have 4 months to get hot and skinny for the bahamas! 4 months EEEKKK!

oh joy its friday!!!

confession confession i love my confession FRIDAY!


i confess...

...i was kind of sad this week. jordan and i had talked about some things and they ended up not happening. i was surprisingly let down. i didnt really think i would be.

...i am so excited for tomorrow. white water river rafting! woop! lets go!

...i am scared of carnival rides. i went on two last weekend. i will probably never do it again. i am pretty sure after the first upside down thing on the kamakaze i screamed "oh shi*" 100x (excuse my french.

...i confess im a sailor. i try my best not to be butttt it just comes out sometimes like word vomit.

...i hate people that talk about athletes, stars, etc like they are there best friends. no one knows what these people go through everyday and no one ever gives them a break. they do good-they bring up the bad things theyve done in the past. the do interviews-they ridicule them for the things they said. they dont do them-they bash them for it. give them a BREAK! REALLY do it.

...i am still obsessed with how i met your mother. two weeks in and were on the final disk set. yeah were ADDICTED!

i confess...

...i hate paying bills. i feel like they never give me a break. they suck everything out of me. well us. [were trying to get rid of all of our debt & its literally taking all of our money from us!]

...i hate being an adult. i need new breaks. when i was 16 id call daddy and say "hey my breaks need to be done". it would get done and id drive off. [call me spoiled if you want but they took care of me and i am so grateful for them]

...i have a cavity. yeah a mean one. i know its getting worse... it stinks! [growing up again sucks]

...i found some boots that i love. they were $610. yeah. GASP! i almost vomited. i confess i have unintentional expensive taste. is that bad? haha. dont answer that. ps i wasnt buying them, it was a gift for me from my brother.

these were the expensive ones....

...i think couponing is a waste. hear me out before you close the screen and never visit me again. the shows on tv the sales on blogs the things i see are all things that can go unused. i set my budget for food for the week at $50. [this doesnt include date night] i never go over. i buy what we need and thats it. i feel like couponing involves buying things you dont need [that may or may not go to waste] to get the sale. to me thats wasteful. yes you may use it-but some you dont! maybe my theory is twisted. (i talked to my grandma about it a few days ago she is the one that planted this seed so sorry haha)

...i have missed one of my friends. i am trying my best to stop thinking about why we stopped talking. yeah. im trying. maybe im a bad friend for just not letting things go and just saying whatever, but i cant do that. i have tried. seriously tried. its been nice to talk to her a little bit here and there.

i confess... im starving right now and im done with my confession. so link up with mamarazzi and get your confessions started! cant wait! have a great weekend!

suckin it up!

so this week i have sucked at blogging. i still have stuff to post from this past weekend so maybe ill just post pictures and call it a day. anyways-thursday snuck up far too quickly. i have been so busy with packing & battling with neck pain to even remember! so here i go!

happy thursday...

im thankful for...

-pandora, im listening right now and its playing my favorites. its the best thing ever. its like if psychics were real. this is what they would do for a living. [i may have spoken too soon right as i started the next though 50 cent started playing hahaha nothing against him-im not in that mood today]
-my brothers, though there are thousands of miles between us all, some how they always say the things i need to get off my butt and cheer me up. i told bryan that my neck was hurting he followed it with stop being a puss. yeah that helps me, sadly. sometimes there truth is all i need to make me laugh. bryce sends me pictures and i crack up because he is just an idiot. i love them.

ignore my gimp eye but my brothers are the best

-my mom & dad, yeah this is in here every time probably but i have something awesome to announce. im going to the bahamas. yep. jordan and i are going! thanks to mom and dad. dont be jealous-be excited for me(us)! we have never been anywhere like this EVER in our lives. EVER! i have never even been out of the country. i am so so so EXCITED! screw winter its going to be time for the beach!

bahamas

-i may seem super trashy to you but i trade in my shark week card for JERSEY SHORE! yeah buddy. im not even scared to announce it. i love the jersey shore and it starts tonight. haha judge all you want.
-prayer, i have been praying a lot! i mean A LOT. its a good thing i love it. i go through fazes where i dont pray as much as i should and then go back to praying like a maniac. i have had a lot to think about and a lot to deal with. things with church and also moving but i feel good about these things because of prayer. now lets pray i get a job. haha. i have applied for a few and heard back on some-but we will see!
-birthdays, yeah first because im thankful for one year more that i have been blessed with and also who cant love a day ALL about YOU! im so excited! i am pretty sure were going white water river rafting and im pretty excited about it! 2 hours on the river in cody wy sounds awesome to me. just saying.
-the small things my husband does to make me smile. last night i wasnt feeling well and he took me on a 3 minute drive to Heaven. a field of sunflowers. yes i love sunflowers they are my absolute favorite and this...this is something that i have never seen and loved!

-diet cherry pepsi, im addicted to this and also dr pepper. ugh.... ADDICTED!
-pinterest... yeah its sad. i wake up in the morning and dream and create and drool over everything. its the best.